I just tucked in my kiddos. I have picked tomorrow as the first week of the 36 weeks of our history curriculum, Tapestry of Grace. I prefer to start a couple of weeks ahead of the public schools so that we can have a longer winter break. The thing is, I feel really melancholy at the moment--not excited to start a new cycle of learning and discovering. I feel more like I'm going back to work. I don't think it should feel this way at all...I want to sit quiet and alone to meditate and sort through my reservations and misgivings about what I have taken on. Some things I have taken on are so outside my comfort zone, perhaps I am bumping up against the discomfort. Anyway, time will tell. I trust the Lord to help me sort through this.
I have been feeling much the same way since my son entered 6th grade. I think part of it is seeing my limitations as a teacher of "everything". I am one person and can only do so much. I have realized that I cannot keep up with my now 7th grader while homeschooling 2 other children and do all the other things I need to do as a mom and wife. When they were younger, I could understand everything of what they were learning, but I can't keep up anymore.
ReplyDeleteI guess for me, I am seeing the limitations of homeschooling. It's taking a step back and a re-evaluation of how this is all going to work. It's going to take different platform than it did when my oldest learner was in elementary school. I'm needing to adjust to a new independence - one upon which he will have to learn on his own. I won't be always able to help him with the answers. Maybe this is part of your apprehension?
Thank you for your thoughts. I am glad to say that, due to the wonderful attitudes my children displayed yesterday, that we had a wonderful start. I have been giving all of this much thought and prayer.
DeleteHope today went well for you and that you find the peace you seek.
ReplyDeleteThanks. I am seeking, and the Lord promises that I will find Him. I don't always need answers, but I cannot do without his peace and guidance.
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